I can never say: "I say I told you so!"

I have no topic for this post. I'm just gonna keep talking until something makes sense. My new job sucks. I hate it. Its pretty much a dust factory. A hot, dirty, noisy dust factory. The pay sucks. I work all week to have not enough money so by the time its payday again I already owe people the money I haven't made yet. Like some crazy cycle of almost. God hates me but he loves my family so he keeps me around. Hey! There's a topic.

God.

Who is he? What's his motivation? Is he really watching? What does he think of all this?

Let's start with "Who is he?". The bible will tell you God is a man shaped figure who resides in Heaven and watches down on all of us with deep love and sympathy. Really? I wouldn't believe everything you read. In my opinion God is what created the universe. He is not a being who sits judgementally above us and shakes His head. God is energy. He is gravity. God is cosmic background microwave radiation! He IS in fact everywhere. He IS in fact all powerful. He is and always will be. The stories we hear about him were most likely made up to scare children and criminals into steering clear of sin. So when I think of God, I think of him as the universe itself. He is everything.

What's his motivation? To me its simple. He wants to put all matter in every possible configuration. A daunting task even for Him. The result of this we perceive as time. The matter moving through the cosmos, including you, me, trucks, planets and asteroids, is simply on its way to its next configuration. Each configuration will only be achieved once and matter will move on to the next. Easy. So His ultimate goal is to make time. He is time. He becomes time and so gives us a sense of day by day.

Is he really watching? No. Not in the sense we are made to believe. He is not the patient father carefully watching his children while they grow and mature. If he is watching its not in a conscious way. His watching is merely observation. Making sure all His atoms and particles are following the rules. That is, moving the way they are supposed to and in the directions and speeds allowed by His laws. His laws are what we call physics. He says all matter will have an attractive property we call gravity. He governs the movement and interactions of all matter and thus governs all things.

What does he think of all this? To me this is another simple answer. He doesn't, but let us assume for a moment he does. If He did think of His universe and our role in it why does he let us go about the way we do? Why would a loving God allow the suffering and disparity that is rampant on our planet? My reasoning for this hearkens back to a lesson my father (my actual father) taught me a very long time ago. You can't have love without hate. The law of opposites. For instance: if you lived in a world where the temperature stayed at a constant, you would not understand the concepts of cold or hot. If you lived on a planet that did not rotate you would not have daytime or nighttime. So to answer the question: He IS a loving God, but for this to be possible He must be capable of hate. Its a real possibility that He hates us. This thought downright outrages many who believe God as the bearded guy, but to me seems all too real. Another thought is that He doesn't hate us but is rather indifferent towards us. He may even just consider us as matter. No feelings involved other than the feelings you may have for your coffee table.

So my warped view of the world and all that surrounds it may seem impossible to many pious folk. I just remind them that their views seem just as impossible to me. That a being created all this, for us, is just as outrageous as ideas proposed by early scientists such as the earth is flat or that our sun revolves around us. In the end my ideas and views are just that: Mine. They are harmless. it all comes down to how comfortable we are with or own mortality. I'm very comfortable with how I think it is. I would like nothing more than for it to be the way it's taught in Sunday School. I would love to spend eternity with all of you in a peaceful utopia. I would love to reach the gates of heaven and have you say "I told you so!".